UPDATE:

ok well i think i have found a diet that might work!... i found it off this one web sight...(http://devoted.to/fadingobsession) im gonna add some of own stuff in there though...

Breakfast:

1 piece of high-carb fruit (banana, large pear, 1/2 mango)total: varies

Lunch:

1 piece high-fiber fruit(apple, plum, 1/2 cup of berries) Total:varies

Dinner:

1 piece citrus fruit(orange, small grapefruit,tangerine, 2 clementines) Total:varies

                   TOTAL:

220-310 calories, 1 gm fat

all that was from that web sight... im also only drinking water... im going to do this for 8 weeks... the first week is going to be a liquid fast water or juice... 2nd week the 3 a day fruit diet... im going to alternate that for 8 weeks... so if any one wants to do it with me then kool... im really going to stick with this... i want to lose all this weight...

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im so depressed...im sick and tired of being so fat!... my sister took the pills i was taking that helped me loose weight... and it was working but scense she took them i gained 3 lbs!I HATE HER SOOO MUCH! i hate my self 2... im toooo fat! i hate looking at my self... i cant imagin what other ppl think when they look at me... right now im sooo fuckin determined to loose 20 lbs in 2 weeks i dont care what it means i have to do... not eat for 2 weeks i dont give a fuck... i just hate not being able to fit into the clothes i want to ware...

 (fiona apple)

i want arms like hers!

Ya know i hate being in a mexican family because its all surounded by food!!! i cant ever get away from it!  grrr... and it is soooo fatning... but yeah... im just glad that most of the time im not home...  lol so yeah i did about 50 crunches when i got up and for lunch i really fucked up i had half of an enchalada and a bottle of water god only knows how how many calories are in that... but i dont plan on eating anything the rest of the day im just drinkin water... now that i think about it i think im going to go on a 3 day liquid fast so yeah lol thats what im gonna do... well i need some thinspiration so here ya go...

  (the all famous pic of mk)

IM ssooo happy i lost 5lbs!!!! yay!!! lol i dont know how i did it but i did and thats all that matters... lol im doing alot better i havent been eating very much... i  have too much stuff going on to eat lol im always out with my friends so therefor i  have no time for food and that is a very good thing... lol so yeah im going to go i just though you should know that im doing fine... so ill talk to you later...

                Stay strong!!!!

Sup ppl... im doing fine...  i dont update as much as i need to or want to... i just dont like posting when im not doing very well!... i dont think im going to do the self chalenge anymore... i just need to work on getting back into the swing of things...i have been doing alright by eating one meal a day... but i would like to not eat at all for a wile and just work out and lose the weight i know i gained back... i might go out with josh... if he decides not to go out with this one chick stephanie im going to make my move and quit being a lil bitch about it... cuz my friend meg says he likes me 2 and that night i got drunk and made out with him he was just buzzed so he knew what he was doing so yeah... i got a pack of cigs and i other ppl have had more of my pack than i have oh well im just to nice like that.. lol... well im gonna go... im going to walk around the block and smoke and then play catch with my "dad" and then yeah maybe do some crunches... im joining a nother softball team... this dude wants me to play for goddard.. i guess he seen me play last summer and he really liked me so he had my old coach call me and ask me to play for him... so yeah im going to be working my ass off this summer... partying and playing softball..!!! thats going to be hella fun... so ill talk to yalls later...

                    LUV YA STAY STRONG!

well things havent been going as well as i would want them to... but yeah... saterday i went to this party at my friend luks house... and i got fuckin drunk as hell... i was told i made out with my friends ex bf... but i dont know... and no one will tell me the truth... its really pissen me off... but yeah... his name is josh... i like him 2 so i wanna know what happened... ya know... there were rumors that we slept together and that we just kissed... i dont know... but i know no matter how drunk i was i wouldnt sleep with any guy... so that one is bull shit... so yeah... im gonna go... try to do some crunches before i go to sleep and yeah.... sry havent posted in a wile but ill try to keep up...

                 LUV YA LOTS!!! STAY STRONG